January 15th
Wednesday. Completed my lunch time loop, after work headed for a walk with the husband and youngest dog. I am so tired, mentally mostly, brain is so negative and full of poop. Why are you bothering? You're too fat, you will never be able to get fit, what's the point in trying to run? This is the mild version of the soundtrack in my head. Work feels really stressful as well. I suspect, that this is more my mindset, I have genuinely had much more stressful times at work! I didn't try running, but did walk fast and didn't enjoy this walk one bit. Flora had great fun, she is the embodiment of living in the moment, when you watch her she always looks like she is having the best day ever! I think I just want to be fit, I just want to be able to do the things. Spoke about this with lovely husband on the way round. No point in pushing myself to not enjoy being out and about, the whole point is meant to be having fun. Went to bed at 2130, super early for me. Boots on miles: 4.42, no booze.
January 16th
Thursday. Lovely sunrise this morning whilst wandering in the field. Still in a brain funk, did lunchtime loop and short walk with the oldies, another very early night. Finding it hard to shake myself from this brain space, normally I am better at combating negative thoughts. Concluded that, even if I need to stop trying to get quicker or run, I need to remind myself this is a self discovery journey, not a punish my body and mind journey. I have lost the desire to see what I can do, and just feel despondent. Hoping being open about my feelings will help move on. Boots on: 1.87 miles, no booze.
January 17th
Friday. Another lovely sunrise this morning. Feeling slightly more like myself, another early night last night. Decided to go and get a nice meal deal from Sainsbury's for my lunch today, forfeit the walk. Love the halloumi and pesto wrap, so so tasty. Enjoyed my lunch and still got out of the office to shake work off a little. After work, met husband and youngest dog for a walk along the old railway line, last time we walked this all I could think about was the walk being over. We decided that this was not going to be a rush, I would set the pace and could turn back at any point. We picked several points in which we would check in with each other- really me, husband is fine haha- and then we could turn back if we wanted. This really helped with the brain space, the sunset was pretty, and I love how the lights of the towns around sparkle in the night sky. So we did the route, up and down, 4.18 miles and I actually enjoyed myself. Pleasantly surprised that my comfortable pace was under the 20 minute mark. There was a time, that would have been my fastest pace. Decided I won't go to the running class in the morning, still tired and it is a long drive with an early start- for a non morning person. No guilt, it is designed to be done online and/or in person. Feeling relieved that I don't have to go, but also a little guilty haha. Boots on: 4.18 miles, no booze. Thought would share a picture of our oldest girl, Lady, managed to get a picture of her blinking, she is a rescue and around 15-16 years old, deaf and pretty blind. She is amazing.
January 18th
Saturday: Did feel bad that I didn't go to the group, but also glad. Had a lovely relaxed morning with the dogs. Chatted with my dad on the phone, he reminded me that I am starting further back than most people, and that that is fine. But I have to cut myself slack in that way, I will get there, but it may take longer. It's a shame I signed up for the 5k in March though, mind, if I have to walk most of it, then so be it. I think I should have picked a flat 5k instead of a trail run! Decided to go walk along the sand dunes again, initially I was all wrapped up in my brain, but after pottering for a bit I warmed up back to my normal self and actually enjoyed being out with the husband and youngest dog. Started to find myself thinking about how I can tackle the running, so I feel I am achieving something, and that I don't just give up on it, but make it my own. A spark of 'I wonder what I can do' came back! We then went to see some friends for the afternoon and had a lovely time. Pottered the staffies when we got back, lovely slow wander, then had a good relaxed evening. Boots on: 3.04 miles, no booze.
January 19th
Sunday: A day at home, just what I needed. Hanging out with the doggies, spending some time outside pottering and a 15 minute dumbbell video on youtube. Still completing RED January but not pushing so hard I forget what my target is! Enjoying watching The Spine race on youtube, what an incredible feat! Did say to my husband, we could do that one day! 248 miles, the UK's most brutal race. You never know...No boots on and no booze. The staffie is Red, this is his second feature. This is him exploring what used to be a shed, always lots of interesting smells around there, he is a rescue and is 12 years young, he is the cronkiest of our dogs bless him. Plan to try the first run on couch to 5k tomorrow with my mum and maybe my sister.
January 20th
Lunch time walk completed, work was alright today, got to get out and visit some patients which is always something I enjoy. Not got my work vibe back yet though, hoping that is coming! After work, met my mum and we went and did the very first couch to 5k. Mum chose Jo Whiley and I chose Sarah Millican. I liked it, I find the structure really appeals to my brain, you don't have to think or check in with yourself, its just 60 seconds fast, 90 seconds walk fast...I like this! Fitbit was being a bit rude, insisting that I am now 'undertraining', even though I walked just over a mile and walk/jogged 1.82 miles, what a jerk! No booze, and 3.06 boots on miles.
January 21st
Had a busy day today, worked very hard! Lunchtime walk completed, after work met with the husband and youngest dog, turned on couch to 5k week 1, run 2 and did this on our longer walk. Definitely made the walk go much quicker! 8 minutes of running completed, the walk is a incline all the way and I felt this so much more than the previous day on the flat. On the way back to the start, we added in 4 more minutes of running, could feel the fatigue, noticed I kept catching my feet more! This walk run covered 4.33 miles and I ran for 12 whole minutes in total! Woop! There were lots of walking breaks, but it's an improvement. We then put Flora in the car and did 5 hill sprints, running up for 20 seconds and walking slowly back to where we started. This was less awful than I expected. Felt the burn! Finished the evening with an old dog pootle, this felt like a really good way to stretch out my muscles after an intensive day with exercise- fitbit still giving me sh*t, stupid cardio load. 6.48 boots on miles and no booze (on a work day too!).
Week 3 round up:
- Completed RED January, for week 3, moved every single day
- Completed Dry January for the week
- 1000 mile challenge: 23.05 boots on miles completed this week, this is over target so that is nice and can mean some leeway in the future if needed. Total so far is 68.65/1000 miles
- Trail to 5k, this is going better in combo with couch 2 5k!
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